BREAK UP DIARIES: I didn’t want to live anymore after my break-up, says Eijaz Khan

New Delhi: Television actor Eijaz Khan is missing from TV, and the reason he gives for that is he gets bored. In a recent interview to Bombay Times, Eijaz said “It is just not about making money anymore. I am spending time with my father these days.” Eijaz was dating a Canadian singer Natalie Di Luccio, and is still can’t get over his break-up. Talking about what went wrong, Actor said that it all started when he was shooting for ‘Laut Aao Trisha’, serial in which he played dark character. He added “Somewhere, the lines blurred between real and reel and our relationship suffered. I had to undergo therapy for depression, and it made me realize that I was superimposing my childhood memories to play the part. I also realized that all my issues are deeply rooted in my childhood. I had unresolved issues with my parents after they parted ways. My aunts took turns to look after me. I never had a strong bond with my parents. I was always looking for someone to hold on to, some sort of an anchor. Coming back to Natalie, we remain cordial. I never loved anybody like I loved her — like a child, my equal, a friend, travel partner. I don't think it was right for me to expect Natalie to give her precious time to our relationship. I would have also advised her to focus on her career if I were her family. I am the only person who knows the real Natalie. After she left, I was very disturbed to the point of not wanting to live anymore. I would lock myself up in my room for days on end. As actors, we are emotionally fragile. On top of that, we men are expected to be macho and strong, no matter how broken we are inside.” When asked about what he thinks of Love and Marriage now, he said that he can’t bear the trauma of losing someone again. Well Eijaz, we hope you soon get over all this and focus on your acting career.