Bigg Boss 14 finalist Nikki Tamboli who is currently in Cape Town to shoot for the adventure reality show, Khatron Ke Khiladi 11, is still grieving the loss of her brother Jatin who succumbed to Covid last week. On Monday, Nikki had shared an emotional note remembering her brother and her mental status at the moment, which she deleted later.
In her now deleted post, Nikki had admitted that she cries herself to sleep almost every night.
And now Nikki took to Instagram Stories to share a new quote. “A million words would not bring you back, I know because I tried, neither would a million tears, I know because I cried,” it read.
She also posted a note from one of her fan clubs, which said that they were feeling ‘low and depressed’ after reading her note, and added the hashtag #LoveYouAll.
In her previous post, Nikki had said that she cries herself to sleep every night. “I miss my brother so much and I am sobbing myself to sleep almost every night. few people whom I know tell me that it was his time to go and I should be glad he’s not in emotional pain anymore and not sick anymore and that I have to let him go but my mind doesn’t want to accept that. I just want to be able to talk to my brother and when I say this to my friends they say me that I still can, but it’s not the same They are just not understanding or listening to how I am feeling. I knew my brother my whole life, we were very close and we always protected each other from the other family members and I had to look after him for most of his life even when I wasn’t around him. I kind of felt like my brother’s sister and mum. My mum & father just keeps saying I am the strong one in the family and she could have never gone through my and she expects me to be doing ok now and feeling strong now. I don’t feel strong at all now. I feel like everything is too hard and I just feel each day is difficult to live . I haven’t accepted my brother’s death,” wrote Nikki.
For the uninitiated, a day before Nikki could take off for the shooting of reality show Khatron Ke Khiladi, her brother Jatin (29) succumbed to COVID-19 related complications.